Hello you. I’ve missed our chats. I just finished painting the hall. It’s 9:09 P.M. I had a sudden case of “must paint the walls.” I hate this stage. This is the “I feel I have no control over my fate, my self, or my existence. I know! I will paint the walls. This way […]
Masquerade
Masquerade. Painted faces on parade. Masquerade. Hide your face so the world will never find you. – The Phantom of the Opera by Andrew Lloyd Weber I have sung that to myself at least three times a day, every day, for twenty years. And now…I. Am tired. This thing inside of me is very much […]
The Day After
I can’t stop writing today. I do this. It comes in waves. I have a bad day, I break and suddenly see more connections. They next day, I review my new perspective and have to relearn and re-examine everything all over again. This is how I am Unbreaking Me 🙂 During my break down yesterday, […]
Hyperarousal
I am sitting here now thinking back over it all. They say awareness is the first step and now I see it. I can see it all so clearly that I wonder why I couldn’t see it before. Perspective. Everything really is all about changing perspective. I decided a long time ago that I couldn’t […]
Anger
“He saw death for the first time in his life,” I heard my husband say. I shook my head and I gasped. “What?” I felt the anger rise. Anger. Now that was an emotion I never allowed. “That day that he was all alone and he thought his brother might die…he finally saw death. Since […]
To the lonely and the scared
Gotta write. I see Gene Kelly standing in the middle of a mock up stage crying out, “Gotta Dance!” I’m at my computer, trying to work on the blog tour, but my mind wanders and pulls me away until it hurts me. I must write. I must. Gotta write. … Hello you. That’s right, I’m […]
Living in November Rain
“I wish I could understand the words,” I thought, driving down the highway this afternoon. I gazed at the radio. “Guns ‘N Roses not Bon Jovi,” I said. I was still learning the music of that era and always confused the two bands. The rains were coming, but I couldn’t see the black clouds rolling […]
Keeping Up Appearances
I am including an interview at the end of “Broken.” This question was asked of me and my answer can’t wait. I had to post it now. The answer I composed surprised even myself. Question: I understand the need to write something like Broken, but why publish it? Why put this out for everyone […]
Going Home
Well, today I awoke as a published author. It feels surreal, but only a little. 🙂 I spent the entire morning on Goodreads while Bergen handled himself on Facebook. Kallan and Rune were teamed up on Google+ where they took turns blasting each other with vile comments and tempers. Occasionally, Kallan fried Rune’s ass. Each […]
Current thoughts
Fear of rejection. Guilt from selfishness. These are my most prominent feelings I’m experiencing right now. I’m a writer. Writers tend to self centered. We write books exploring our stories, our beliefs, our opinions. We launch websites that exist like little countries and we hoist our flag. “I hereby deem this Angela Land!” I exclaim. […]