I am a mother of three and a philosopher. I’ve been married twice. I am a weak agnostic/atheist. I’ve dedicated most of my life to defining why we are here, if there is a god, and studied topics such as the history of philosophy, religion, psychology, and anthropology. I’ve spent years examining early civilization and […]
Broken: Preface
I wrote Broken for me, but published it for you for a number of reasons. First, psychological speaking, this is all very cool. Second, my children have suffered from my conditions and my only goal is to help them and undo the damage I have caused. This ties into my third reason: I hope others […]
Another Sea
I dreamed last night. It wasn’t a nightmare, but… The feeling it evoked is still with me. Like I laid down in a garden with him and there was peace. And I loved him, pure and simple. I loved him so completely in that moment and then forever. I was camping with my family. My […]
Official Diagnoses and Overview
3:53 in the morning. Goddamn the muse. I’ve had one REM cycle—I forgot to take my medication for nightmares tonight—and I can’t sleep. I know I’ll crash and pay for this later. I have Nala in my lap. A stuffed lioness cub I cling to like a child when I sleep. I can’t let her […]
Looking back to “Broken”
These are a series of emails exchanged with an ARC reader. As Broken is being launched, the therapy doesn’t pause. I want to show you a few things with these emails. First, this is what it looks like to be a writer. Second, this is the internal struggle I am dealing with even now. […]
Can you hear me?
Can you hear me? I’m dying inside? There’s war outside. Can you hear me? All around me are horizons. Everywhere I look, horizons. And I wonder, what’s beyond those hills? I dream of what my life could be. I dream of what my life should be. I dream of worlds beyond me. All around me […]
Defining PTSD
PTSD isn’t just for the soldier, but within every trauma survivor is a soldier. Trauma can result in symptoms. The problem is, most people don’t recognize their quirky habits as symptoms. I used to work in a call center. I can not describe the amount of mental stress it caused me. Now I know why. […]
Inside the mind of a bully
“I don’t understand why my step-brother, Shaun, hit me. I just…” I trailed off. I couldn’t explain how much I was at a loss for words with my therapist. This is one of the recent conversations I had with her. The explanation has stayed with me. I can’t get it out of my head. Passive, […]
Broken Art Gallery
I will never grow tired of seeing the work Indigo Forest Designs! Again, phenomenal work! I give you “Broken” Read more on “Broken” Now available for pre-order at… Amazon All other Formats Release on 11 September 2015. Broken will be made available on paperback and all major eBook formats. Broken is a work of creative […]
Nightmares
I’m recording my nightmares again. I started having nightmares when I was around eight. By the time I was twelve, I began keeping a dream journal. 9 July 2015 (Seriously…I am using this dream in a fantasy book!) Part 1 – I had to babysit this group of ethnic children. It was late, about 11:00 […]