It is 2017, and I have two teenagers in the house. That’s right. An almost 15-year-old girl and a 13-year-old boy. My 10-year-old spends much of her time wishing she was in her teens. I. Do not. Needless to say…this is the best of times. This is the worst of times. One day, my beautiful […]
Happiness: Rest
In pauses, we rest, we clear our minds, we think and slow down. Only when we slow down can we start to see, smell, hear, and experience everything we’ve been missing. This, dearest reader, this is where happiness awaits. It is in the silence. It is in the calm. It is in the moment that […]
Happiness: Finding Direction
With my new life, my new growth, my new me I was able to embrace the world around me. I think back often to the day I stepped out of the other worlds that were in my head. I felt I had awakened. I had. I left my room and noticed my children had all […]
Happiness: Mental Cleansing
If ever there was a day that I felt changed, it was the day I walked into therapy and smiled. Just smiled. I had nothing new to talk about. Nothing new to report. I talked about my new life. My new me. So many possibilities were opened up. I wondered often, “I’m through the dark […]
Happiness: Confronting the Darkness
If Step #1 to happiness is committing to totally honesty with yourself, then step #2 would have to be confronting the darkness. Unearthing all the pain, the hurt, the past you’ve ever survived. And you have survived. Pain, suffering, and trauma isn’t just something you experience. It’s what you survived. By default, this makes you […]
Happiness
“To be nobody but yourself in a world that is doing its best, night and day, to make you into everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight.” E.E. Cummings I have to ask, why do we keep choosing to fight this battle? Breathe in. And out. And smile. […]
Deadened to The Walking Dead
Today is Wednesday. For me, that means I slow down for the day and avoid all work. It seems weird to most that I would take a full day off every Wednesday, but it recently occurred to me, we don’t call it “Hump day” for nothing. I took the push out of hump day. The […]
Unbroken
“I’m sorry. I have to end our commitment.” I run these words over and over in my head lately. I can’t stop replaying them. “It’s been a while since we last spoke.” I looked at William at my kitchen table. The afternoon Irish sun blazed through the open window. From here I could see the […]
Breathe. Let go. Smile.
Mediation is the undoing of trauma. Yoga is mediation for your body. – Angela B. Chrysler I feel it. The end of my journey. The end. Something you never quite recognize until you can look back and see just how far you’ve come. Something you never quite recognize until you can look ahead and smile. […]
The power of “I.”
This is one post I’ve put off for a while. A number of my followers will unfollow me. Many will lash out at me. Total strangers will attack me for this. Then, just yesterday, I realized that these same people didn’t care about me when they horrified me and threatened me as a child. Nor […]